Dividing your attention

Your personality can focus on one thing, person or thought pattern at a time. Even though he has taken care of developing smart ways of dealing with this through being able to switch very fast between the various things and persons and thoughts which call for his attention, however, this does not mean the basis of the mechanism itself isn't still the same. And yet, the standard your personality has adopted is one of dividing your attention equally and preferably react nice to people who call on your attention.

There is the pure focus on your own thought process to begin with, here your personality rules alone. Next, a personal one-on-one contact without any distraction is the easiest way for your personality. If you like, all attention can be focused on this one person, each and every move and word can be noticed and an appropriate reaction can be given. By the way, the same applies when you are able to focus on a single task.
Now we add one extra person. Your personality now intuitively knows that he can never make this work perfectly, since the expectations of these persons are likely to differ from each other, and he now has to 'let down' at least one of these two people more or less frequently, or is likely to make mistakes because he does not get everything that is going on.
Another example: instead of 1 person, let's add 1 activity. Now there is tension between your own personal thoughts in your head, thoughts which seem necessary to perform this activity, and the person around which also (may) call on your attention. And whatever your personality believes to be the most important at that moment, will 'win' and the other aspect will be seen as something disturbing.
Simply stated: the more people and activities enter your span of awareness, the more frequently you will find that your personality cannot make things work well for you. You are likely to start noticing personality solutions like giving a kind of superfluous attention to a person who enters your room and makes a remark, while continuing focusing on the thoughts in your head, physical retreat into a separate room, and such.

It all starts with the assumption that a person needs to get attention from your personality, and that disappointment or unpleasant feelings in the other person need to be prevented through you by meeting their demands. In this way, a contact is nothing more than meeting the wish for attention of the other person. You simply can never live up to the ideal picture of your personality, as soon as there is one activity or person which calls for your attention there is an interference with your own mental process and it only gets worse from there. Do realize that it is simply impossible to meet the standard your personality has adopted as ideal as described above. And that from now on you no longer háve to, you no longer have to keep on trying to make it work anyway, in smaller or larger groups and whether or not combined with more or less tasks to perform. So this is not a personal mistake of yours, it is simply impossible.

The true solution cannot be found in making a set of rules in order to meet your personality standards as much as possible, it can be found in surrendering the whole issue of your attention to your inner Self. Since that is the aspect in you which is not completely separated from others, inspiration from there will no doubt be more inclusive than your personality can ever come up with. You will not equally divide your attention in meetings or while performing tasks. Action inspired by your inner Self always comes with an intense feeling this is the right thing to do, an experience you simply cannot miss.