Can you choose what you find when you become more Aware?

Seen from the perspective of your personality, it seems that you could choose what you would find when you become more Aware. It seems like there is a wide variety of possibilities and things people strive for with regard to this, and different names seem to point to different 'goals'. It also seems that when you choose to nót open up to one of these things, it somehow would not be there. Like it were only to exist when you would open up for it. The only thing your personality proves in this way, is that you can be reasonably successful in closing your mind on perceiving what is there besides your preferred focus of attention. You could compare this to sitting in a room with your eyes closed and then stating that becáuse you do not see anything and you are very good at keeping your eyes closed, 'therefore' there is no room.

Still, you cannot choose what you will find when you become more aware, since it is already there, you only chose to not know this right now. And when it is there, it is there NOW as well, right in this moment, accessible for you, you only have different priorities as yet on which you want to focus your attention. What it is that you are going to find when you remember more about Awareness, you cannot change nor decide. You can only invent new distractions through your personality and attempt to bring yourself on a new path of forgetting. To stay with the comparison about the room: you can choose to postpone the moment where you want to open your eyes and play some more games with your eyes closed. However, the form and interior of the room that you will perceive when you do open your eyes, do not change by that.

The only thing you could label as a choice is a practical aspect: does a certain way or approach to become familiar with this process, help you to see the difference and make a shift in the focus of your awareness. Whatever name you give all this, either to the way or the goal you are about to find, does not matter in itself. On this site, these things are named personality and inner Self, there are many more names to call it, which all point towards the same things. It is this difference only where the many books and stories about this process vary: not the goal itself, nor its characteristics, only the many ways and triggers to help you Remember again.